Tuesday, July 03, 2007
So many things to be said, aint got the courage.
So many things to be done, aint got the time.
Been stucked up at home.
Really hate my life, dont know why.
There isnt much thing to live for.
Ive got no targets, no goals, just living as it is. Apparently, meaningless.
Sometimes i just hope that i could make some difference in something. Perhaps, in someone's life, come up with something new, just something that people might go "Hmm, nice." on. Perhaps, maybe.
What i have decided on, i dont know why, its so unbearable.
Just wish things will turn out good without me, im pulling myself away so as not to hurt anyone anymore. I should be the one leaving, i am.
Going crazy, mentally as well as physically.
I've pull my body to its limit, but i love it when my whole body scream in pain, dont know why. Im a sadist.
Mentally, ive been thinking alot, and so, i tried to block off my mind.
I dont know how to say, but ive got this psycho thingy, i can feel a person, not know a person. Anyway, ya.
Its always been for others, ive never put myself first.
Friends have been my first for quite some time, and yet. I dont have a bestie. Out of a sudden, or many sudden, i just feel so enola.
Perhaps, i am still a slave of my destiny.
I walk alone. Feel the pain.
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|6:16 AM|
