i cried again

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|2:54 AM|

loves not something ez to come by .. or to hold on to..
lets face it.. its juz feelings making fun of ourself..

what ive come to conclude.. u dun have to be with the one u love..
just imagine u are... u will be happier.. so will the other side..
the pain the sorrows.. the everything thats goes on with a relationship.. even the sweets and happiness that last for like 10% of the relationship.. is not worth it.. . im afraid.. like i said b4.. i no longer dare to love anymore.. no longer know how to love anymore..

forgive me my love..
im sorry.

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:24 AM|

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had gr8 fun even tho i did lots of running.. hahs

i ran from marina square to MOS.. coz i hate waiting..
then cab home.. ran around to find an ATM.. lol..

total expenditure.. is 14x.xx.. hahas... but was fun.. =)
so its doesnt matter.. i wan my frens to be happy... anyway..
sry amanda.. nex time treat u ba.. hahahs.. =P.. and amanda.. u eat my fren tofu.. lol... i wanna be kleo.. x.x .. amanda!!!.. T.T.. lol... x.x.. my fren so xin fu.. x.x ...... drooling.. lol...

anyway.. fun fun fun.. haven been crazy for so long.. happy..
shiok... was really tipsy.. hahsahsa.. i cant take cigs sia.. x.x..
crazy ass i am.. crazy ass.. and forgot to takes photo yday.. SAD.. and WHOSGOING WASNT THERE... NO PICS AT ALL.. OMG... I JUZ REALISED.. NO PICS... OMG>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

to bernice and jon.. relax a bit.. let go a bit.. but not all the way.. take things easily.. its been so long.. u understand each other.. no nid to be angry over.. its no longer a lover dovey couple thingy.. such a long time together.. its supose to be a mutual relationship already... ive nvr seen my grandmother noe my granddads every move... lol... x.x ...

anyway.. anyway... stop bullying amanda.. lol...

anyway anyway... to kleo.. and ya.. mutual relationship.. like i said above.. not like my granddad noe whr my grandmother went to.. or wat shes doing rite now.. or wat.. its the freedom u have in a mutual reationship.. but.. .the problem lies with.. the extention of the freedom.... i believe freedom to an extend.. tat you dun feel suffocated... but yet.. u dun feel too loose.. i duno wat to say.. coz i dun really noe what happpened.. =).. take things slowly.. and dun do things rashly.. im always here.. =D..

its 5 AM.. bathed//.. become high liao.. sian la.. i go watch number 23 ba.. LOL>>>>>>> nites..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|4:36 AM|

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been thinking.. its best this way.. =D

孤 [i WALK alone.feel the pain] .. .. [niap eht leef.enola KLAW i] 单

happy~~... not emo post wor...

my poor dog got stepped.. =.= by my sis.. on the front left leg.
poor ger.. now beside me.. turning it.. chinese.. turn.. 2nd ying.. x.x .. yea.. tats it.. its been hiccuping alot.. duno why.. no one to ask.. anyway.. today dota.. dulan.. si bei sian la.. going back work in cathay.. 4th may.. nex week friday~.

nites..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|9:46 PM|

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i juz wanna be there

to hold ur hand even b4 u fall

to hold u tight even b4 u feel cold..

but.. NO...

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|8:34 PM|

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sometimes.. i dun understand myself.. and yet.. i wan to understand someone else..
isnt it tryin to kill myself?.. prolly....

been htinking alot.. recently.. but to no solutions.. i cant control myself..
been flooding myself with games again... psp.. tiberium war.. dota.. maple... hais..
crazy la...

ive been thinking of you every now and then... worrying. duno why.. and i noe i shudnt be.. hai.. sux la. its really torturing.. and to see you like this.. nothing i can do.. feels even worse.. coz i noe i dun have the rights to do anything.. hai... maybe i shud juz give up.. let go.. forget..

nite

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:11 AM|

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hills have eyes 2.. wild hogs.. spidey.. freedom writes.. number 23.. nitemare detective.. and so many more... anyone wanna watch with me...

its on the house..


i dont understand myself.. hoping someone might juz do..



u make me cant slp in the night..
cant listen when its time..
cant study when i shud..
and i dont know the reason why..
make me forget... if i shud..

i knew this would happen..
and yet i fall for you..
help me.. say goodbye..
help me..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|8:56 PM|

seems like.. nth can make me hapy..
prolly.. im juz unsatisfied with wat ive got..

my doggy.. i love her.. she love me.. pathetic..

maybe back to working in cathay...
tireness and thinking.. making me sick and slpy..
moodless to do anything sia..

nites..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|1:00 AM|

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striked out..

understooded...

someone.. just accompany in the middle of the night.. no nid to tok alot.. no nid to do anything.. juz company.. anything will be fine..

ius nix

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:28 PM|

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someone please help me kip the dog quiet in the middle of the might.. T.T

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|12:08 AM|

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did something happened?...

or is it becoz of me.. ?

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|12:29 PM|

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missing you.. im crazy... hai... sch faster open

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|11:10 PM|

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bored... dun wanna slp.. nt tired.. dun wanna play games.. bored.. late at nite.. nth to do.. anyone wanna go out?.. or wanna chat on phone?.. 83334600 ... im totally bored... nth to do...

please.. someone come pei me.... deprived..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|11:14 PM|

happy yday.. was glad.. no reason..

sch reopening.. faster,,,

didnt go work today... woke up 6 pm +...

love.. been playing with it.. saying it out only to all my gays.. and my poor michelle.. my rubbish bin...

tired.. of everything.. really..

been missing you..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:58 PM|

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you might not understand or know

words from you
hurts greater
heals stronger

than anything else..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|9:29 PM|

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