Monday, August 28, 2006
sian... working most of the time during holiday....
coming thurs and friday not working.. hmm... and i freaking lazy to kip washing my uniform everyday!... hai... life juz sux.. today..sunday la... parent went malaysia again... =.=... so monday come back...
forgot to cut hair... wanna tio gan by boss liao.. =.=... hais... dun feel like slping... but... online also nth to do... maybe stare at msn list for a while... appearing offline.. lol.. .x.x. lame la... hai...
i wish to die ... looking after everyone from some whr else is better.. juz like appearing offline but still have your window opened.. hais... lame la.. going crazy.. to live is not a beautiful thing to me.. my family sux... my life sux... me myself sux even more... how i wish everything can end juz by itself.. i wanna live on.. but... live on for?... theres nth for me to live on for... hais... i going crazy again.... hopefully i will have a happy post once during this holiday ba....
im tired. tired of being fake. tired of pretending to b happy. when im really not. im tired of getting scolded for nutting. tired of giving my everything and getting nothing
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|2:13 AM|
Sunday, August 27, 2006
i forgot wat i wanna say le... coz on the 25th.. i wanna post but.. server crash or wat fuck de.. cannot post... but all i wanna say is.. i alrite le.... coz i have made up my mind....
the reason i gave her up is tat i dun wanna be hurt... and now i see her so happy with so many pple taking care of her and now shes always smiling.. tats the best isnt it?... hhahas...
hmmm... i will try to forget bout her totally.... but hope to see her put on that necklace juz for once... hmmmm.... tats all then....
560 days..
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|2:57 PM|
Thursday, August 24, 2006
o ya... dun say i nvr give pple who chase after my blog soething ggood... nowadays very stresssful.. so alot things to write if not... sure mati...
and 1 more thing for u all.... my old post is in one of my blog.... and its link by someone named...
e___o... find out urself..... nites
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:37 AM|
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
well.. today.. ibe dunno will pass or not... sian la...
after ibe... dunno wat to do.. so go eat lunch... shudnt have ... haiss...
but b4 start test... sam sms me ask me go bishan pei her... i very free so i replied ok after my exam...
when having lunch at mac... saw her with someone... and i noe who tat some one is... dunno y... i feel abit unhappy.. i noe... i made myself not to feel anything .. but dunno why.. its like everything others said was true all of a sudden... after tat... no appetite to eat.. but kip suffing myself with fries.. tok tok to yuan a while... then go home... didnt even turn around to see whether the 2 are still there... hai... HAI.... then saw them at the bus stop.. so i suggest to yuan tat we walk to the mrt station... i so feel like smoking again... kill myself in cig.. =.=....
then i decided to give her the present today... i went hoome.. took the present and still with bag.. =.=.... went out to take bus... the journey was long.. and i tot i was lost.. coz i didnt take directly from home to hers b4... only back from hers.. so lydat lor... when i reach her place... i called... i was like.. wtf.. i do wrong thing again.... she was slping... maybe all this meant something.... we aint fated... then she ask me to go her void deck.. but i was already at her door... so i go down lor...
when i see her..... everything was so different.. see her smile.. like all tat pple said was lies.. its been very long since i see her smile.. i gave her the present... and not more then 1 minute... we parted.... i feel like huggin her.. for the last time maybe... but was afraid... dunno of wat... then i juz see her walk away.... i stayed at her void deck for quite a while... walking around... juz walking around.... after tat go home.. tats all..
i tell myself... since shes got someone else le.. i shud be happy for her... coz shes happy i shud be too...
hmmm.. i willl kip myself away from her.. till then...
564 days to 3/10/08....
you were online on 14th, 18th, 20th, and today...
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:21 PM|
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
sian la... after quarellig with my dad.. i went out...
to study and also to buy present for fren's birthday which is coming soon....
i took bus down to town... dunno go there for wat.. so walk walk... walk bout 5 minute.. called edwin seee whr he is.. then bla bla.. go woodland find him and his fren.. we go there eeat dinner at pastamania..
after tat go buy the present... decided and bot a necklace at lee hwa... im totally broke now... and my laptop still spoil.... my mom say my dad will buy 1 for me.. but i also not sure.. i dun wanna take his money... BUT... my bank $950 nia..... walllet .... $30... =.=.... from $400 to $30... broke broke..... money money money... i go buy big sweep for the month of sep... see will win 2 mil or not.. LOL... x.x
hmmm.. the necklace.. the more i see the more i like it... hehes... but.. shud i give?... coz.. after buying the present.. went to admiralty study... from 11+ study till 2+3... then edwin and me talk lots of craps... and we realise.. LOVE SUCKS... hahas... it is always better to be love then to love.. tats wat i think la.... he noes who tat present is for... then he also noes i got gf.. he kip saying.... wat i did is wrong... hmm.. i dunno... maybe i buy a even more valuable de give my gf on her birthday ba... sound like im guilty.. but. dunno la.. she deserves better from me... and im trying to give her happiness.. coz she really deserves it....
and recently heard alot bout her also... not directly from pple i noe... but got to noe alot bad stuff about her... and untill now... i can say truthfully... i dun trust her completely... it doesnt mean i dun trust u at all... but sometimes there is this uncertainty... not influence by pple but from wat i see myself.... i know when u see this.. u might not be happy... but thinking back to the past.. you have really changed alot... hais..
now.. i dunno who to trust.... suan le ba... anyway.. my idea of buying cake is cancelled le... i cant think of anyway i can give it to her... coz pan pacific The Atrium Deli SUCKS... no delivery.. but the chocolate moose cake over there...ROCKS MY TONGUE!!..... i was thinking of delivering it myself.. but.. who noes whr will she be?.... most likely out playing... so i think give the necklac jiu hao le... hmm.. ya hor.. i tot present cannot say wats inside de?... but nvm.. i think she not online this few days to see my blog.. lol..
Everyone JiaYou STUDY! And Goodluck.....
goodbye...
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|1:48 AM|
Sunday, August 20, 2006
today... fucked up day...
my father smash my laptop... we quarreled... i not staying home tonite... no matter wat...
my family sux...
a fucking father who fucked a maid...
a fucking sister who comes home onli in midnite.. everytime with a ger fucking in her room
a mother who is always nagging and ask me do everything
FUCK UP FAMILY.... bye
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|5:09 PM|
Friday, August 11, 2006
小时了了 大未必佳
hai... no longer tat smart le.... last time so smart. o level gaming whole day long..
now... no mood to study, cant get anything in my brain... im so scared of failing....
so feel like giving up... hai....
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:52 PM|
Thursday, August 10, 2006
hi guys... long since i blogged... lol...
kena scolded so come blog lor....hmm exam copying lor...
but i recently got lv 60 in maple.. and 2x haven over.. wasting it le.... coz exam...
then auditionsea.. suddenly playing it.... also cannot playle
then today go install kongkongsea... wtf.. soe asy to play.. addicted le.. =.=
i think gone case le ba.. but i dun wanna retain... but IM too lazy to study!!! wtf sia
hai...
God. Bless me.
Peace off...
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|4:54 PM|
