im crazy again..

on the cab back from work hor.. i tot of something..
kinda lame but.. its rather true for me~..... lol... hmm.. this is how it goes...

A guy treats you god dam nice... when hes wooing you... coz he noes he nids you.. and do his very best to have you... a guy who does everything for you and cares and do god dam nice stuffs for you... its becoz he wans u to be happy.... really really happy... all this is becoz HE LOVES YOU...

dunno wat else but the main thing is coming up....

you noe they treat u this and tat... tats why u fall for him... but... when everythings starts to change.. its not tat he loves you no more...

when he stop treating as nice as b4.... its becoz... he noes he have you... you have already gotten the best from him... he dun have to worry that much..

when he stop doing everything for you... its becoz he noes tat... you have learnt tat... theres limited things he can do.. and you cant expect much from him....

when he stops caring about u as much.. tats becoz he noes he have you... always by his side... wats there to worry.. when he is taking so good care of you?...

when he stops doing those sweet sweet nice stuffs for you.... its becoz... he thinks you have him.... and thats the sweetest and nicest thing you ever get... lol....

please dun take it tat he loves you no more.. hahas...
lame huh?.. i noe im not any love pro or wat shit... 1 single relationship only talk so much...
well... its not the numbers tat counts... -.-.. but the everything u put in before.. during and after.... i dunno why i sudenly think so much.. muz be i too sick.. going crazy.. fever burning my viens.. or wat eva shit.. lol...

如有一天你不再爱我 你一定要告诉我....

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|3:23 AM|

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安静 世界末日 回到过去 风

this few songs by jay chou.. i have been listening to them again and again repeatedly for the pass few weeks... dunno why leh... when i listen to them... i juz feel much much better.... maybe im crazy liao.. hahass.... the songs are nice.. but mainly its the lyrics tat catches me... it shows how i feel right now... and the struggle bla bla.. =.= ... so lame.. lol....

hais.. nothing else to say le... maybe i juz have to let it be.... nitez

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:16 AM|

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o0o.. i siao liao... lol... today wednesday.... hmm woke up at 630 AM.. =.=

went to slp at around 2+.. wtf sia... cant slp back... wat happened?.. maybe coz of my blocked nose or wat ba.. dam sick this week... haiss... love sick u call it... i dunno.... lol.. haiss... lata still have to work at 3-10 omg... going to be rather moody or dam tired.. zzz... watch ice age 2 yesterday lor.. during the premier... then saw edmund chen.. and tat quan yi feng... hmm... she got tat guai lan face indeed... lol... no la... juz looks like not happy... maybe coz of that stupid group of pple block the way to her seats... and lini bring her to wrong row.. lOl.. ya wateva...

dam sick la... yday kip sneezing... then runny nose terribly torturing me... haiss... no one take care of me... worse thing is the cinemas in The Cathay is fucking cold....... u nid to bring sweater... remember ar.... =)).... its fucking dam cold....

haiss.. i juz hope someone wud ask about me.. or best is take care of me... lol... i think its impossible ba... soon fever coming ba... duno leh.. juz have that feeling.. then headache like shit... haiss.... i still remember wat u said b4... but i dun expect anything.... hahs... =).... everything have changed for us... but for me.... nothing have changed at all...=D... i will do wat i say i will.. and try to kip all the promises i had to you....


hmm.. i go iron clothes liao.. byebyess...

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|9:56 AM|

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today so tired... moodless to work like ramli..
worse case... u come to cathay.. but i didnt get to see u... only see gab.... dunno why... like suddenly no mood to do work... feel like running down to find u.... x.x ..... ramli asked me why i look so glum.. i dunno why.. lol....

really glad tat u came.. =D... but sad that i didnt get to see you... its been 17 days since i saw you... x.x.... i siao liao... lol.. =.=.... hais... nvm...

er... saw kenneth (Habbo nick = kiokuharu) at The Cathay catching a nite show with his gf... LOl.. didnt noe someone wud find this kinda new cinema... he told me he search for it online b4 asking her gf out... like me lydat... lol.. =.=.. hais... i work untill siao liao.... monday i no nid work.. so lydat lor.. tuesday is gala of ice age 2... hais.. i hope i can get tickets for you... i try to.... =DD.... coz i think its for VIPs and Movie Stars... i not sure too...

ermmm.. so tats it lor.. i go bath le.. b4 tat.. i watch hills have eyes and half light liao.. free... coz i work in The Grand Cathay.. i have to stay in side to assist in anything.. lydat lor... hills have eyes.. got this last part... whr the male actor climb onto his feet and continued fighting after looking at his ring... so like me sia.. now.. the ring is the only thing tats making me continue... lol... lame.. then i watch a bit of failure to launch... the ending part again... whr the guy get tied up... wat he had said.. was like wat i wanted to say... but to me.. i noe you are not a cheater...

where ever what ever i go or do...
i think of you....

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|1:24 AM|

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i tried not to blog anymore... but .. =.= ..so lame.. i juz kip continueing blogging... zzz....

hmm... 24/3/2006... today is the grand opening of The Cathay to all public... the day b4 was for the VVIPS.. went home at 3+ am.. tired... today reach home at 12+.... sad... no free cab.... but was very happy.... samantha came to find me!!!!... so happy... ahahas... i forgot to tell her about the free tickets....[ i think].... so shes there to see me.. not for the movie... reallie happy... first time someone treat me so good.. perhaps coz she noes tat im feeling very alone.... hahass.. but really happy.. =)... THX SAMANTHAAAAAAAA!!.. lol... x.x .....

but.. shes not the one i wan to see.... =)
haiss.... x.x... whenever i miss you... sometimes... i will juz look up into the sky... noeing a dot of light tat doesnt blink is the satelitte... and the blinkings are true stars... lol... loooking at the stars... i could juz remember tat day.... hugging u so tightly.. if i can turn back time... i wouldnt have let u go play dota so early... wun have rush u to get something to eat.... and will never let u go again.....

if u no longer have feelings for me... plz tell me.... it doesnt mean anything... i juz wan to know.....

saturday which is tml de shift is 1700 - 0300... going to die again... coz The Cathay is opened for 24 hours.... juz a 5 minute walk from PS or Dhoby Ghaut Mrt station... im the Usher in grand cathay.... wahaha... wearing suit + a stupid bow tie.. u can ask samantha how i look like.. and nick also.... the two come and see me.. so lame.. i so light bulb sia... LOl.... so lidat lor.. i go rest le...

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That thing you do.

You,
Doin' that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you,
Don't mean to be cruel,
You never even knew about the heartache,
I've been going through
Well I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I,
Know all the games you play,
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
'Cause I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl,
But I know one thing's for sure,
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore

'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
Around with someone new,
And if I know you you're doin' that thing,
Every day just doin' that thing,
I can't take you doing that thing you do

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:31 AM|

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it hurts me so just to see you go...
you might be angry becoz i said tat u lied... you think about it ba... whether u did or not...

the one tat hurt me the most is when you tell me that i am the most important to you you can push everything aside for me.... but few days later u message me telling me... your friends are the most important to you.. you wun give them up for anything.....

think about it ba....

i changed my blog.. is because i dun wan u to noe how i feel or wat anymore... i dun wan u to be sad or angry juz becoz how i feel... giving samantha my new blog address is also becoz.. shes the one who accompanied me when u did tat thing to me.. leaving me to suffer....
and coincidentally.. she had some problems too.... we comfort each other when we both cried... and she wans to noe more.. tats y she have my address... if u dun trust me and dun believe me.. i have nothing to say....

you kip saying i dun trust u.... or is it u dun trust me... not even abit... i can swear and promise you that i TRUST you... why wudnt u belif me?... all i wanted was tat you will spare juz a little time for me... tat is all i want.. tat is all i want!....... i already said tat i have given up the idea of having u...

hai.... i wan u to tell me about u... not u reading from my blogs only... tats no way we can noe more about each other... u cant sms anymore.. and msn... u are always busy.. i dun think we have any chance of toking at all.. i tried calling u.... u did pick up like u have said... but less then 10 seconds.. we hung up....

tell me how u feel.. tell me wat u think.. tell me what u want... tell me everything i shud noe... please...

hai.... remember me telling u tat i will try to do or get wat u want... if u really want me to forget u... i am trying to.... im trying my best to... but i dun think its possible.....

as long as your happy

loner-forevers

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|2:26 AM|

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today off at home.. parents went to china.. home alone.. thinking about so many things.. i shudnt have ask for off... hais...

thinking back at what u said.... u really want to noe how i forget about her?....
i did something tat goes agianst my heart.. i made her hate me.... i made her angry with me.. i made her find me irritating... tats how i forget her....

i dun wan u to hate me.. dun wan u to be angry with me.. dun wan u to find me irritating... coz i juz cant forget you... you are much much more important than u think u are to me... and even much more important than me is to you.... i hope you will understand... its not easy for me....

i wun post anymore.. =).. its so useless posting blogs when no one understands u.... im blogging at another website... only sam noes about it.. hahas.. better be honoured about it.. =/.. so tats it.. byebyess


loner-forevers

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|5:43 PM|

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ni zhen de ner me wu qing ma?....
shuo zhou jiu zhou.....

thinking back.. i could have been the one who hurt you the worst... that day.. you told me your very stressed up because of me... and i thought about it.. i dont want you to be stressed up... i want you to be happy... so i shall not be selfish and pull you down.... i tried... i really did tried to give you up.... but it just seems so hard to do..... i dont understand how you lie to yourself and do something like this to me... why must you do this?.... is this the only thing we can do?.... why..... i want to know.... why have you become like this.....

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|9:42 AM|

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i have never walk away...
im always at that very place... waiting for you... waiting for you to finally understand everything...
waiting for you to know what i really want...


[forever]

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|1:27 AM|

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All that you have said before, i wont believe thats its true. Its just packs of lies.
No one can let go that easy as you had.
You leaving like this, it hurts me even more.
I wont stop you from leaving, but please dont block or delete me from your msn.


Goodbye.

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|2:02 PM|

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Sorry

Sorry...
It just hurts too much that i forgot it is most important that you are happy.
I will try to keep my stress and pain and everything else to myself...
I'm sorry...
No one will see my blog anymore.....
Its officially down... =)

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|1:52 AM|

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