Loner

2010-08-14T01:58:00.003+08:00

boo... last post was march.. today is august.. nt bad.. nearly half a year..
nth better to do.. so came here to post something..

all i can say is .. life sux... nothings is going my way...
so many things that is out of my controll.. i dont like it
i dont like to do things blindly...

hais.. bo bians... ive got no controllllll..... fk...
shall not say more... 130810... friday the 13th... juz a bad day for me....

2010-03-07T00:56:00.003+08:00

its been long since i last posted here..
bet no one remembered or bothers to check out here anymore.. hah..

nth much to talk bout, im juz losing myself..
wats important now is my focus on my career....
nth else should distract me...

life sucks...
simple as that....

2009-11-04T22:56:00.001+08:00

you do stupid things for the one you love...

feel gong gong that day standing at her door front looking at her..

lol... x.X

2009-07-21T20:48:00.001+08:00

happy 21st in seletar.....

2009-06-20T13:05:00.001+08:00

im just sick and tired of this few stupid things

2009-05-15T17:05:00.004+08:00

This are some recent photo updates. Hope you guys missed me. HAHS.

When i POPed from BMTC.

Photo taken at Genting, the day after i POPed. =D

Some when after POPed, or during SISPEC, not sure. But its a clear view of my BOTAKness.

Cheers!

2009-05-15T16:59:00.002+08:00

wawa weeeee...

Its been long since i posted here man. Real Long.
Lifes been great, never had i regretted going SISPEC and then into CBRD.
Its cool being a special force, you get lots of EX. IE to say EX. Flying Fox, EX. Cunning Fox, last but not least our course's favourite, EX. Sleeping Fox.

3 Months passed by fast, now im going to move on to another phase as a 3rd SGT.
Hope that my man dont give me any trouble or whatsoever.

I'm gonna sign on as a CBRD Specialist, dont say that im crazy or what, i think thats another career to take on, actually its nothing bad compared to whats out there now. AND, with my result i dont think i can or would further my studies. But if theres a opportunity, i will definitely for the studies. Venture into the BioMedical Engineering. =D

Whatever the case, hope that life goes on peacefully.
Loves,

SEEK STRIVE EXCEL!

2008-12-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

With Pride We Lead.
SCT
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2008-12-10T14:37:00.001+08:00

POP lo.. =D

2008-09-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

13 sept.........

2008-08-18T06:13:00.001+08:00

Tear-ed and Cried are two different words with different meanings.

And i still dont dare to ask how shes been.

2008-08-18T04:32:00.002+08:00

Woots
Its 433am right now, just finish Bobby and Hustle& Flow.
It was from Ben, a colleague working in PEC, dont know how am i going to return to him. Maybe meet up someday.
Both show is good but kinda too lengthy for its own good.

Makes you wonder, whats your purpose in this world?

Well, its sentimental emo time. Lol
Been long since i can get to be emo, working is tiring. If it ever possible to not work and go something that brings in cash, it would be my dream. I dont think i can handle office hours, i will collapse. I know im weak, too bad then. Now, rotting at home almost whole day. Been playing games, and it got the better of me. Because of a dam game, my PC crashes lots of time and i tried many ways to solve it, thinking its the RAM problem. And now, formatted my PC AGAIN.
Everythings gone.

My photos with ebby / polymates / kIdZ buddies / cathays / phone captured is all gone. Even all the chat logs that ive keep for years, headache ar...
Super emo about all this, i dont know how am i going to get back all that. Any PC geeks can help me? Geniuses? Really find myself stubborn and stupid. Next time if i cant play any game, i will just give up on it. Hais.. Emotified.

Hao ba, lets talk bout last week(my first week of holiday).
Did running for 2 days and a day of home bound exercises, did pumping sit ups and weight lifting. Got any other ideas of what i can do to build up? I mean at home, im so lazy to leave my house. hahas....
My cashs are going lower and lower, i got my last pay on friday and now im already trying to spend as little as i can. Hope to be able to survive for few months on army pay + current savings. But im super gian on buying Iphone and WII, dam... I am so stubborn....
Lets hope i win TOTO, lol, ive decided to put my money into gambling or so as to say buying some hope. Spending $4 weekly on TOTO, im getting addicted to this kinda stuff all cause of my dear baby. lol.. Hmmmm, lets just hope for the best. =D

And regarding the Buffet on 31 august, my whole family including uncles aunties will be coming over to my place, so its gonna be huge. Invited some of you guys, its actually something my grandfather wants before i get into army. Hope he can make it to tekong with me, =) ..
Regarding army stuffs, havent get any of the items yet cept my black frame specs. Too lazy to get to queensway to pick up my specs, it costs 80 bucks cheap or not? Im not sure. lol Money money money, i hate this world. If we could actually work it out with no money at all, its the best for MANKIND...

Hmmmm.. Its too long a post ba.. ill stop then..
http://kicks.runup.com.sg
join me!

2008-08-08T18:35:00.003+08:00

NO MORE WORKING!

Money-;
Haircut?
Black Frame Specs.
New Undies. (Again)
Display Shelf.
External 300GB Harddisk.
Army items.
Savings.

List for now..

2008-07-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-07-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

Too bad!
I think im gonna give up on my online shop.
The FRIENDS DVD have defects!
Season 2 - One of the episode got NO AUDIO! But subtitles, its funny enough.
What you expect from S$40 ?...

At least its still DVD quality, but i dont dare trade selling, dont wanna get scolded for scamming?.. x.X.
Bla... Actually was hoping to earn some savings or my MUSTANG fund. O.o
Well, hope i win from the scratch scratch thing from SP - Singapore Pools.
Spent S$12 for the scratch card in the end winning S$1.. LOL... But it was fun.
Saturday, baby bought 4D 1810, then the result comes out 1081. OMG...
SHOULD HAVE BUY IBET. You know its like hundred plus? So sad.......
Shes blaming me for not insisting on IBET.

bla.. Hoping end of july comes fast and can start my EPT - Extreme Physical Training.
Lol, Hope it builds up my body. I wanna be sexy HOT, LOL....
Was requested to stay 2 more weeks for the job, but well, probably just before National Day ba?..
AND, 7/8/08 is just another normal boring day~~~~~~~~~
yawns...

kk... i think i go sleep le.... anyone else with emo problem please do cheers up.. life is so gonna change when your 20 -21... thats called GROWING UP!..
NIGHTS!

2008-07-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

Backed from KL and Genting.
Tired, its been a tiring weekend, been shopping and everything. Walking around KL is so tiring, and i got scammed!
My massage sucks!
Didnt feel anything at all.

But i feel that i will be going Malaysia for few more times, or just go there walk walk. Hahs... Anyone wanna go?

I only know a few place over there, but those who are adventurous can tag along, its gonna be fun, but you have to know MALAY!
Been to Sungei Wang and Bought FRIENDS DVD at only RM83.90, around S$40. Cheap like craps. The full set is selling over RM1.3K in Genting. So, i might be planning to get in contact with the shop in KL and ask what other English TV series they have and get it flown in or shipped in.
I saw LOST Full Season 1-3, FRIENDS Full Season 1-10, ER Season ?-?, Chuck Season 1 and many others selling at super low price.

So, if i get in contact and discuss the details with them, i will be spamming all the blogs that i can see. =D... Im gonna reserved cheapDVDs.bs.com.
HAHSHAHSSS....

O yah, went to KLCC, right below The Twin Tower.
The things there are super duper EXPENSIVE, its all gucci LV coach and many other. But its selling at a lower price then singapore, just a little lower... i saw a purple long wallet for ladies, its RM1.850k, its super chio lor.. too bad i got only RM1.1k in bank!.. lol... its really CHIO~!!!!!

lalala, anyway, back to work sucks... so lazy so lazy... gonna finish up my work i think in the second week of july. Too bad 22nd july is a tuesday. Llalalaa... Money is so important, im gonna definitely sign on if they are sponsoring my studies... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. I WANNA BE A COMBAT MEDIC, PARAMEDIC, R&D BIOMEDICAL INSTRUMENTATION OFFICER!

Ok, nights!

2008-06-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

A little old lady goes to the doctor ... and says, "Doctor, I have this problem with gas, but it doesn't really bother me too much. They never smell and are always silent. As a matter of fact, I've farted at least 20 times since I've been here in your office. You didn't know I was farting because they don't smell and are silent." The doctor says, "I see. Here's a prescription. Take these pills 3 times a day for seven days and come back to see me next week." The next week the lady goes back. "Doctor," she says, "I don't know what the hell you gave me, but now my farts ... although still silent... stink terribly." The doctor says, "Good! Now that we've cleared up your sinuses, let's start working on your hearing."

2008-06-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

I feel so torn apart sometimes.

Keeping to my principles are so tiring.

男人的心情?

2008-06-11T22:30:00.004+08:00

Nothing better to do. =)

Been rather emotional for the pass few weeks.

Don't really know why but it just happened.

Don't really like it but well, i am like this, what you gonna do?

Maybe its the stress or what that's making me this way.

Growing up, thinking of what there is in the future just gives you headache.

So many things to plan for, worry for, stressed about and worse of all, i still got 2 years to get stucked in NS.
Or even more, cause i've kinda decided to sign on and at least get Medical Officer in SMIT.

"So They May Live"

Sounds corny, but that's their motto.

Yesterday, got news of a new recruit passed away during PTP.
It scares me, but made me want to get ready for NS.
My faithful condolences to the family of Andrew.

Recently, i've been listening to chinese songs.
Getting emotional or maybe getting too engrossed to the song.
I just love singing along. =)
Till then.

2008-06-05T18:43:00.003+08:00

To continue with what i have ...
the post i made strongly believe that life is like a story book.
you die it ends.. but people in it, read it, watch it.. will always remember that theres such a book...
be it thick or thin book.. the content is what that matters most...
and its true, never judge a book by its cover..
you might even find gold in one of the books..
HAHS....

to me, never judge a book by its cover stands firm..
for i believe, people changes, but does their outside change too?
hmm.. nono....
no matter how a person change inside, its never shown on the outside..
meaning you cant tell when people changed.. or maybe when its too late already...
but when u see people changing outside.. as in their attitude, style. and stuffs... well.. most probably .. they are stil the same shit inside.. the main reason for this change is their believe.. they believe by doing so.. so on and so forth will bla bla bla.... this is what they are.. they didnt change?...
that wat i think la.. hahs....
bla bla bla blalaaa.a...

hmmmm... the so called gold~~~
will... or call it treasure.. it could be anything... from experience, pain, happiness, friends, lover or what so eveer... its something thats unforgettable or only once in ur life time opportunity.... so grabbed on to it... and never let it go...
this gold or treasure... can only be achieved by "reading" into others story..
i duno.. but you can label such a thing as priceless? worthless? perfect??...
hmmmm...
i would suggest to get into as many stories as you can.. be it bad or good things u get.. its always something thats gonna light up your own book.. hehes.. =DD

unfortunately.. having the courage to do so... is extreme diff thing.. hahs...
i wish good luck to everyone.. lol.....

lalalalalalaa... i wrote this during work... on monday?.. hahs.. byes

2008-06-02T01:51:00.002+08:00

I am tired. Really tired, i feel so meaningless.
Life to me, its too empty.
I envy and are jealous of those who have goals and end to make.
I have nothing?
You know, to see people like musicians, athletics, bloggers or whatsoever, they are happy in doing what they do and going hard into it. As for me, well, i just dont know, i still cant find anything to fight for or go for. Even if i have, theres something else thats pulling me back. Some other responsiblility is always there for me to handle.

First of all, i strongly admired Feng Yi, shes a crazy ass.
She stays Hougang, works in NTU in weekday, and in weekend?.. Works in Downtown East Cathay.
I dont get it, shes never tired. Her strength to do what she wanna do, thats amazing. Thats what i look at her as, a superwoman. Hahs...
Anyway, DTE Cathay is rather cock up place, it requires tons of training for the staffs and cleaners.

Craps man, lifes so meaningless. I dont really get it, why is it that whenever i work in Cathay i will get emo. Just a saturday in DTE Cathay, i can see life so crystal clearly. I dont know, probably the break time and repeated endings of movies messed up my thinking.

Anyway, sorry to my polymates, wasnt able to join you guys for the "Grad Night" on friday. I dont know why, but, just dont have the mood. As friday got nearer i just feel so tired. I missed clubbing getting crazy, shouting, screaming our lungs out. Hais.. Just hope theres some other day. =)

As for now, all im trying to do is keep myself in a good lifestyle. Was hoping to get into some dance class or what, but due to the fact that im going NS. I dont have the time. And im working weekdays, so yeaps. I need the cashies and was hoping to get oversea before enlistment AND a catching up session with everyone whose been in/inandout of my life. Its gonna cost me big money. Hahs, so probably and not willingly, i might be working DTE Cathay on saturdays. Hmmmmm...

People i wanna catch up with, hmmm..
Well, just wanna meet up for dinner, small talks or movie or anything.
I dont talk much, just wanna look at those few peoples again.
Like i told someone before.
If theres fate, we will meet again. For a few friends of mine, its unbelievably true that we could get along so well. Its a sudden burst of emotion and trust that brings people together. Not in the sense of relationship, but belonging. I dont know how to put this feelings to words but its just like this.
Many people or should i say female friends. x.X... have left quite an impression on me. It was just so suddenly that we could sit down and talk for hours or for me to spent time with. I am a superbly lazy piece of shit. If you ask me to stay and chat. I would probably say, see you tonight on msn, and forgot to appear online. =.=....

Hmmm, people like Andrea and Raina. Most importantly my lovely baby, Xueying. Hehs...

Andrea:
(Like im writing story)
Dont know why but its cause of a long ago incident that brought us together to have a heart to heart chat. Ive been working in The Cathay for quite a long time then she came in working in concess. For all i know, shes a friend of Angelia. Thats all. Sometimes, its like chances that we would see each other or just a hi bye thingy. Its amazing that i one day, after work, i stayed back and accompanied Andrea during her break time. She had her meal behind The Picture House walkway. So we sat down and as she was eating, we talked about that incident and stuffs. And both of us was wondering, lol.. why would she tell me about it. We aint close, aint nothing. just workmates.
We both call it FATE. hahs... And now, its been like more than 10 months or so, we didnt contact each other for like a proper conversation or what. Its just a small spark of fate, that bring people together. It changes you and then it leaves. Nothing left behind, but youve changed. Be it she've changed in understanding of something or me but you remember it for as long as you can. Hmmm,.. its just funny to see it back this way.

Raina:

Well well.. shes just another crazy girl... Shes been working in The Cathay too... For like whatever months, cause i dont know she existed! Or probably didnt notice her. Anyway, i dont really remember how we talk or get along so well for that period of time. Hahs.. Just playing a fool...
The most memorable words from her,indirectly was, she feels that im scary... =.=...
I dont talk much during work, thats all. Unless your my eye candy and i always bully you. hahs... Anyway Rainas not.. =P... K.. back to topic..
I dont know how we got along so well.. maybe its that chance or that thing called FATE. that made her decided to sms me when shes sad. I was sleeping if i remembered clearly. Raina smsed/orcalled me, asking whether im free... or what, dam it.. i cant remember clearly... and so... i changed and rush down to PS to meet up with her. I believe at that time she was reluctant to call me up, but i feel happy when someone would look for me in times of need. I will try my best to be there. =D...
We spent the night at ECP and talked alot, walked alot. hahs.. It was fun you know.. walking chatting in midnight. The skys filled with stars, the breeze so cooling, the swish swash of the sea.. Its just sooo calm... it melts you.... Thats the day that changed me to be a little better.. and addicted to the sea.. hahs.. Well... shes Raina.. =D...

Xueying:

This chapter of my life is still in progress. Theres nothing to think back about but to move on together and hand in hand.
All i can say, this are the most amazing chapters of my life. If it is written down, it will be the best selling novel in the world.
Also, in Cathay, she started work just few months after me. And only after a year plus that we actually talk. Most of the time was just hi bye situation. hahs.. And now, we're together. Shes another "thing" that FATE have brought upon me. And i thanks FATE for her.
I shall leave the rest of the chapters blank for now....

FATE.

Theres one more, VIP, very important person, that have changed me. Shes left the deepest and strongest feelings in me. And made me a better man. But ive let her down and dissapointed her for mistakes ive made. If theres a chance for me to rewrite everything. I am willing to sacrifice everything i have now to start all over again. I shouldnt have brought her into my chapters. This chapter i will leave it blank, for i ever wish that i can rewrite it. But, wishes never comes true....

Ebby:

This chapter will only have the title.

HAH... ive spent 1 hour writing this whole of craps.
hmm... i need to sleep and also slim down. hmmm...
k nights...

2008-05-28T02:42:00.002+08:00

wawa wee...
so long.. =D...

i will be an officially graduad from SP - EEE - Biomedical student. hehs..
in like 12 hours?....

wahahasa...
updates.. not much to say.. just work and work... money and money...
emo and emo.... stuffs like this and that... stuffs that normal pple goes thru..
hmm. nothing much happened.. hmmmm... lydat lor..
really cant think of anything to post... ya lor

and yeaps.. i wanna club..
i wanna slim down...
i wanna eight pacs...
i wanna laptop..........
i wanna be rich.........
i wanna play piano..
i wanna play guitar.
i wanna dance!........

i wanna sleep now..

2008-05-05T02:52:00.003+08:00

I am finally back online.
Its near 3 am right now, i know posting this here will get me an earful of scolding from my piggy. Lol.

Anyway.. Its been a torturous and sort of heart breaking 3 weeks of no onlining. o.O....
Starts off with not enough money for my bills, work my ass off in Belden Singapore, a 2 Billion USD international company. Earned around 280 and used almost all on bills. Then all of a sudden, my internet got chopped off. There was an extra 900+ chucked in, due to some stupid reasons, the line wasnt exactly under any of my family's name, so yea..

Didnt really pay attention to no internet as i have my psp, i dont mind with no internet. UNTILL, my PSP gave in too, i dont know what FUNZCENTRE did to my psp, after bringing it there to have a maintenance, the mother board spoils?. WTH?... So i have to save up $120 to have the mother board changed at FUNZSQUARE. Its $150 if you want it changed at FUNZCENTRE. They are 100% SCAMMERS!....

THEN, i start getting jobs from Manpower and Recruit Express and also from Yi Hao's hao jie sao. Hahs....

Whatsoever the case, lol, didnt take Recruit Express's job at all. My previous job was intro-ed by Yi Hao, as an usher in Microsoft HQ in One Marina Boulevard, near Raffles Place. Well, 2 days job, 12- 7 and 2-7 ...
And ya, i still haven got my pay yet... its been 2 weeks after my works done.
Smsed and called, they are still going throught the "process" of bla bla bla..
Hopefully i get it soon. Hahs.

So now im working at a lousy company "Plant Engineering Construction Pte Ltd" Located near Tuas. 21 Shipyard Road. LOl.. =.=.....
Anyway, been working there for 2 weeks? Its $7perHr, so i think its ok la. Problem lies with waking up early in the morning, its so tiring for me!
Hmmmm, its pure admin work, filing, scanning, copying, messenger and ETCs. Just hope they will hire more people to help out, especially a cute or pretty girl to light up the day a little better. T.T... Its boring working there...

Been scanning for the 3 days continuously without counting labor day.
I realise scanning with the cover up is super hazardous, dont know whether its true or just me being sensitive.
My eyes are itching almost every second and my skin are reddening, like you got sunburnt or somesort, but it hurts even more then that. Imagine it.
Everytime i wash my face, and like sort of wipe off the water using my hand, my face turns red like kwan gong. And when i use cloth to wipe dry, i dont actually wipe, i pressed on. Its freaking painful to wipe. Damn, dont know should i get MC or not to see a doc about the situation. LOL...

Bla... just sucks la... Anyway, im using M1 Broadband!!.. Just trying it out, the contract's 6 months, so its ok till i get Enlisted. Its 38.72perMonth, so okok lor. With only 2MBPS, its a little expensive compared to the rest to the ISP. With only 1 advantage over the rest, M1's broadband is all the way portable, i can bring the "modem" out to chalet or anywhere. =D

Hmmm.. Lydat lor... Piggy been sick lately, so too i am. lol..
We eat panadol like its candy. Whahahsahs.. hmmm... and we slept thru almost the whole of the weekends.
Probably just to tired of working so early. We are much used to Cathay's shifts.... I have thought of going back there, cause the working time is way better then office hours. But well, the people are no longer the old Cathay, not much of whats suppose to be is there. So no point staying, keeping in mind its $4.5perHr... Lol.. x.x

hmmmmm.. Such a long post.... bla.. i dont post le.. some other time then.
PS:everyone.. please update me with your latest mobile number, SMS me at eight triple three four six double zero... THANKS!

2008-03-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

Sians.
So lifeless.
Restless.
Moodless.

Dont have the feel to do anything, cabal also.. lvl 77 le.. stuck at master... then not enough stats for OSM set.. sian.. bored
odin ms. walk around niania.. also bored..
maple.. even more no touch....

now juz wanna get a job... earn money like fuck.. then go arcade waste all the money.. lol... that diao candy de machine.. fun sia.. jackpot get the pprize.. fun.. lol.. .lalala...

ulcer in throat.. dam pain... amanda.. now i understand how u felt... T.T

kk... nth to do now.. =.=...

2008-03-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

And yes, Finally i did it.
I got it. With 8 Points. =D

I got it!!!

2008-03-07T04:29:00.004+08:00

Woots.. Kk.. been so long since an update.
Hmm.. Haven been doing much but getting tired everyday.
Been gaming. Lol, as usual huh. http://www.cabalsea.com/ Dont try without the www. cause it brings you to some weird webby. Bla..

Tried playing during open beta but delays. Till 1130PM, then still cant play, found out and solved why the next day. Started playing. I am FA level 44 right now. Fun game if you have friends or get along with the community.

I am now stuck in Channel 9 with my Guild Mates. Probably will be moving out after Level 6x ba. Hahs.. I am so desperately in need of astral board. x.X
But i guess either the map is not out yet or no one have the drop from Monster in Ruina. Hmmm. All the best to the top players, its getting harder to level. o.O.. FA FTW!!!

Anyway.. back to real life. Hmmmm..
Realised something so easily realised. o.O....
I lost touch with quite a few or should i say alot of friends.
Hmmm.. am i busy? I dont know how to reply, cause im always busy doing useless stuffs. Sorry for friends that ive left out. After some time, i need a job. For now, im going to be stuck in my uncle's office till i finish a project for him. I noobish in Adobe Illustrator and PhotoShop, so im kinda laggy using it. Got help from my baby on some simple tools but still kinda stuck. LOL.. Any Pro designer can help me design a 4 A4page booklet that sells off my uncle's products?. T.T...

Bla.. havent got my NS enlistment yet, hope it comes early. So, i dont have to..

"What to do next?"
"O ya, I havent got my enlistment date."
"Cannot do this la. Not enough time"
"This one ar, hmmm, i scared do liao i go NS, then do for what. =.=."

Lames.. LOL.... So gaming is best ba?.. LOL... But i need the cashies.. Maybe sell off my acc. O.o.. Rubbishes.. Cabal FTW.. x.X... O ya.. FYI.. Im stuck in Channel 9 with Guild Justice. IGN: Algren.
PM me or whatz if you playing. +DD.
Bla, is this post long?. I dont know. Hmmmm.. Nothin much to say, but, please keep money away from dogs.
THEY CHEW OFF RED NOTES! DAM!
My money are in shredsss.. T.T... Bla..
I will update soonish with some funny thing that amanda intro-ed me to.
Its a website that focuses on ADs. http://www.sgadsonline.com/ .
I will personally show you the result of acting like a female in need of maleS. As for the SMSes and Details, i might post it all up here. LOL...

I AM A BADASS!
KICK ME!

Peace out.. xD....

2008-02-27T10:31:00.000+08:00

2008-02-27T00:42:00.002+08:00

Okies, heres the update.
Been travelling back and forth NUH. Only few knows why, its ok, everythings fine now. Hope for a good fast recovery. Prays*

Really really tired this few weeks, like travelling to NUH, setting up radio station and helping out at my uncles. Dam tired, dont have enough sleep. Hope that i wont fall sick in the recent future.. O.O.. Or else im so dead, AGAIN.

Hmmmm, well well, results out tommorrow. All the best to everyone.

Good nights.

2008-02-15T00:05:00.001+08:00

Been a bad boyfriend this valentines.

Sorry baby.

2008-02-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

Okies.. Update lor..

Updates*..

Done... Byes.. .lol

Just joking nia.. x.x... hmmm ... yeaps.. new year.. MJed 24 hours..
Hmmm.. sorry to those that i fa pi qi on at yuan place... hmmm...
MJ is fun.. its nice playing mj with u guys.. so stupid.. lol... and anw.. next time dont play MJ overnight with wilson, he siao one.. okies... done...

hmmmm.. total ang bao i got i around 270?... i think so ba.. or lesser.. lalal... so i banked in 230 le.. so lydat lor... today.. went to cut hair..

so lame so lame.. Guys, NEVER GO TO SUPERCUT@Far East Plaza. IT SUCKS.. the service sux like crap.. it was the first time i go there... coz.......

Klearcut was closed... so lame... so i waited almost 20 minutes sitting there.. staring around.. so lame so lame... .and i was already late for work even before they start talking to me.. =.=.. a very very bad experience.. spent more than an hour there.. =.=... so guys.. please do not waste ur time there.. i got my hair cut.. for 32$.. so lame so lame... hmmm...

hmmm.. so.. today work gala for jumper.. nice show.. watched a bit lor.. kena tempted to watch it.. lol... anyway.. sorry for being late.. hmm.. wat a messed up place cathay is.. im leaving for good after this week... and so...

im DESPERATELY IN NEED OF A NEW JOB.... crap.. untill before my army ba.. now all im worried bout is.. SOCOM, i had nightmare bout it... hai.. lame la... so lame so lame... lets just hope for the best.. hai.... bla.. SO, any lobang.. let me noe wor.. was hoping for weekday work.. monday to friday.. so my weekends are freeeee.. =)...

Thats alll ba... blessings to everyone.. bye

2008-02-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

I have nothing much to say.
Not comparing or what.
But, i think some thing that goes by like, Secondary friends, are friends forever.
Well, true that is, but poly friends can be the true blue friend youll ever find.

This 3 years, been an ass, fooled around.
The fun and everything, kena caught by police.. made our first video ever together.. lol... its so lame.. hahs
i remember once.. we skipped lesson to sit at T12 staircase, see people get stucked in the lift. .lol.. so lame so lame..

bla.. the links to your left, tells the story of us, go find out yourself. x.X...

Guys and girl. =DD

2008-01-27T03:59:00.000+08:00

人经不起爱情的背叛，不是因为他们脆弱，而是没有时间和精力，重新去相信爱情。恋爱像体操，需要从年轻的时候开始不间断练习才能技艺高超，等年龄大了再练难免摔伤自己。宁可选择爱情没有来过，也不要今天痛苦的彷徨

背叛

Getting emo this few weeks, not knowing the reason
Prob, subconsciously, graduation day.
Hmmm, whats up, hahas..
Been stressed up about the final exam, literally, FINAL....
I dont wish to stay another day or hour in SP anymore, it brings so much memories, good and bad. Bla.. Its time to move on, for the better good.

Well well, anyway, it seems so my idols changing, from Lee Hom to Gary, Oh my.. Hahs.. Both, they can sing live, thats basically why, they can control their voices well. Thats what im envy of, and like to play with. hahs.. Tho my singing sucks.. lol.

Sentimental songs, kills the time when the skys dark, love it. >.o
Anyone have old jazz like 80s? which is catchy and smoothing. Or some acid rock, something like Creep - Radio Head, heard it from Xing Guang Da Dao, not bad at all. Been listening back to some Sugar Rays hit songs, nice.

Someday
Every Morning
Time After Time
When its over.

Hmmmm.. Its 4:33am... Better get some sleep and chiong DSP when i wake up ba... Peace Out

2008-01-11T04:23:00.000+08:00

Been playing maple crazily this week.
Dont know whats up.
Or probably playing game.
I still cant forget the fact i failed my TP. =.=...

I will always have flash back of that day, when im on the driver seat. =.=..
And i just recieved news from herself, that Wanching Passed her TP. =.=..
Gratz!

Anyway, stressed up on FYP, TP, and Money. Big headache everyday, couldnt get enough sleep. Or maybe its just couldnt fall aslp. Life just sucks. Right?.. Hahs..
Just got a feeling im going to break down or get into isolation soon.
Time to sort out everything, i need time. Deadline for FYP supposedly next monday, got to rush with all that i know. Too many thing, too little time.
My TP.. I hate it, its after my membership expiry, waste money again. I dont wanna put out my hand and ask for money. But, that leaves me no choice... =.=...

I am so blardy bothered by my driving. I really wanted to drive. Hai.
Luckily, baby was there to accompany me, i dont know what i would have done. FCUK!

Hai. Anyway, got a link to a new job. Part time Samsung Promoter, said to be $5/hr + commission. Anyone interested? , prefferred at least 3 months of work. Working days only on weekends.
Ya, thats it lor... Hmmm.. anyway, to maple.. chionging out a lvl 40 bandit (low dex). just for the fun of hearing Savage Blow. LOL..... Started 06/01/08, 6:30PM .. He's level 35 now.. fast or slow?.. Sindit lor... hmmm... What eva the case, im always dooing stupid things before test and exams.. I remember the previous test, was a messs coz of some misunderstanding. Right?.. Anoy. .. lol.. =)...

IM STRESSED, STRESSED.... someone please accompany me in studying before the exams. Cause i need tons of help. ... I dont wanna repeat a year! My FYP, im trying my best, just wanna bai all the way hoping for a pass...

Please, lao tian ye, i need ya help......
K ba, lazy to type liao.. 4:43 am.. i go play psp le.. x.X

2008-01-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

Eve was a boring yet not boring day.

Woke up quite late in the day, was so tired, dont really know why.
Anyway, decided to watch AVP2, hoping that it will be great.
Met baby at Dhoby Guat MRT station around 6. I wasnt late!...
So we sat at the platform deciding where to go, in the end we made our way to Plaza Singapura again. Guess what we are having for dinner. Hahs..

Hot Tomato Express:
Basement 2 of Plaza Singapura:

This is the second time at Hot Tomatoes. The first visit was a good one, the service cant say much cause its like a fastfood restaurant so cant expect much of it. Understandable.
First time there, i didnt have anything cept the Oreos Milkshake, couldnt remember how it tasted, but all the same ba. (Borders Vanilla milkshake better)
And piggy baby had Grilled Pork Chop bla bla.. the pork chop was like heavenly. Tasty and Chummy(if theres such word). Was really really good.

Thats why we are back for more.
But this second visit, was such a disappointment.
Firstly, we were waiting outside for someone to usher us in. Was a long wait, yet no one came, so we walked in. Then the waiter came to set up the table.. =.=... SO we just sit down and look through the menu. The menu was old and looks crump.. o.o.. sux..

Look throught the menu again. Couldnt find much varieties, same few stuffs lor. So i pick out one of their "Signatures", Fish "n" Chip. And my baby got her Grilled Pork Chop with Sausages -something something- again. Hahs..

The Fish n Chip wasnt as expected, mostly your biting through deep fried oil and flour. o.o.. the fries was too salty crapp..
Piggy got her Grill Pork Chop, as i said.. disappointed, the meat was tough and not much of taste ..... takes quite an effort to chew it down.... the spaghetti was super tasteless too.. Craps

bla... overall, i can say the first visit still pulls me back there... you know.. first impression is most important... so im giving it another chance... Will be back again for the PORK CHOP. lol...

Lets see the cost:

Grilled Pork Chop With Sausages
Soup of the day
Bread
Drink ( Choice of Ice Lemon Tea, something, Coffee or tea )
This is in a set - soup, bread and drink for additional 3 Bucks with a main course.

Fish 'n' Chips
Oreos Milkshake

Total expenditure: $25.95

That was how i spend the evening, then we went to couple lab to get rings. =DD. So expensive, amagod NINETY EIGHT BUCKS! Well, its nice, hahss..
Its done within an hour of order, not bad. Hahs.. The engraving was not bad, just for that rough rought texture ba....

As we were waitin for the ring, played DS, Bomberman Land Touch at BKs, saw yh, cn, kj, ys, mk and danny. Lol.. They were deciding where to have dinner, then they went to yoshinoya. After dinner, ming kuan realise he lose his HP. He says " Mei Chi Kan Dao Francis Wo Dou Bu Jian Dong Xi "something like this... hahs.. lol... i so suay sia.. x.x.... but anyway.. he found his HP back at The Cathay E2Max. But i was rushing to get the ring and for my AVP2 at 920~~

Went to The Cathay's HotDog Factory.. Got Black Pepper for piggy and Mushroom Swiss for myself. Monday's HotDog Day, Buy 1 get 1 free (lower or same priced). hahs. I added too much mustard, in the end skinnin off them... T.T... Avp wasnt tat good also.. crappppppyyyyyy...

After movie stayed in TGC - The Grand Cathay, chatted with the guys, they working while i slacking.. hahs... I thought i was chionging my projeect ma... who knows no one call me bout it.. x.x... so lydat.. after chatting went to level 1 of cathay. There is partty there.. so stupid... such a small tent..

Free beers for everyone in there, dont know which DJ also.. craps..
then sms someone.

found out bout something, so rushed down to dxo...
then..

How i end my 2007.
Sqeezing through Thousands of Bangla, Bitches and Bastards, pulling my baby's hand, the other keep on calling and calling. Didnt know what happened, was worried.

Wasted my last 30 minutes of 2007 and first 1 hour of 2008 worrying pushing squeezing and at least saw some fire works. =.=..

What a way to end my 2007 and start my 2008.

Anyway, i want to say sorry to my piggy again. For pulling you with me to DXO.

Baby, I am sorry. And thanks for understanding. =D

2007-12-20T08:58:00.001+08:00

stayed up so late.. tired.. no helm..

right in front of me.. disappeared....

2007-12-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

Break Up
Break Down
Drink Up
Fool Around

Meet Someone New Then Another
Fuck Around
Then
Weeks Of Depression Alone
Start Searching For True Love
After Two Years
Swear That His Your One And Only
Untill
He Is Gone As Well

Two Days In Paris-

2007-11-26T02:43:00.001+08:00

yeaps.. my 200th post for this blog..

hahs.. after a torturous and horrendous week of massive studying...
its finally over.. hhoping to see some improvement in this term, or probably next.. its such a rushy life.. study test test study.. work money money work.. friend game game friend.. hai..

sometime, its just too stessful yea..
to conclude my 19 years.. 1 word.. tired..
bla.. lalala..
hai.. sorry for not able to go soccer again.. i tried not to slp.. but fell aslp.. waking up at 1030 or so.. called everyone.. no one picked up.. so i went back home to continue slping.. woke up 12 AM.. sorry..
CRAPS!

hmmm.. life isnt as simple as it seems..
you can do things you like
you are forced to do things you dont like, while still pretending you like to do so.. then you start asking urself.. is it right to go on lying to urself.. then in the very end you are still doing wat you dont like.. but nevertheless, sooner or later.. wat you dont like will turn out to be ur life. and .. you have to learn to like it...
pple come and go.. some might leave memories for u.. good or bad.. its still memories.. it is this few stuffs that makes you you.. its thanks to this few pple who leave deep impression on you, that changes you or push the u out of you.. lol.. craps.. im getting emo and crappy.. its 3 am in the morning... so wat eva...

well.. had supper on sun morning?.. or saturday night.. at geylang.. with baby, fy and ken, kai couldnt make it, was working 9am on sun.. we talked bout cathay.. its such a disappointment.. i mean cathay.. hmmm.. ive been working there for almost 2 years( in round 4months) .. cathay made the ME out of me.. really.. well.. im still a slacker.. wat eva..
just to say.. cathay is the main reason for everything that happened after i joined.. such a long story to come about.. maybe.. i can write a book.. hahs.. but it involves too many pple in it.. ar.. craps.. =.=...

some times.. i will think of the old cathay.. as in a year ago?.. everyone was still there.. was fun.. ebby.. angelia.. shaiful.. jonathan.. kiat yong.. paul.. alvin.. andrea.. wanching.. aiya.. just all those that have quit la. =.=.. craps la.. hai.. now i prefer working alone.. closing.. just sit there.. waiting for halls to close.. all alone.. time to be emo.. feels great tho... hmmm.. bla..

i dunno to stay or not to stay..

hai.. gonna find a day to ECP.. to emo whole night long.. hahs.. dont wanna type le.. if not its getting tooo long.. craps... bla.. i go bath. byes...

2007-11-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

DotA again...

2007-11-10T04:07:00.000+08:00

Results of vigorous DOTA training on GG-Client.
Hahas.. x.x..i didnt know im pro morphling.
Or probably, GG-ers are easier to PWN.. x.x.
Godlike Sniper too.. =D..

hmmm... i hope i dont play too much.. just got back from work.. im gonna play soon.. x.x.. Its time to study...

2007-11-06T05:17:00.000+08:00

Yawnz... woke up round 1+ .. 2am lydat..

x.X... thanks for understanding..
baby i duno why im so tired also.. x.x..
hmm

play a little game.. till around 3+.. then started doing some stupid thing..
for cathay.. you peeps might think its useless.. but
at least i had fun doing it.. spent nearly 2 hours.. grabbing and uploading photos... argg... freewebs sux.. but its the few service thats available for setting up ur website.. blogger.. is too trouble some also.. neeed html formatting thats already available.. so freewebss... hahs..

hmm.. check it out..

http://www.freewebs.com/cathayfamily/memories.htm

just some simple thing.. bla..
im dead for sure.. test in 2 weeks.. and im doing this.. =.=..

nightsss..

love you baby...

2007-11-03T04:10:00.000+08:00

yes.. we are together..

stop asking her!!!

bla...

2007-10-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

Finally, i am able to use my broadband at home.. X.x..

Some photos i wanted to post long ago..

I forgot the date.. but.. 9 plates for 60$.. Wow.. ~.~

Food Wasted at Ikea. Wow.. ~.~

WOW. I LOVE THIS HANDSOME GUY. (Seriously, i look handsome in this photo) X.X

And whose this bimbo?

=DD... PHOTOS... =)

2007-10-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

noti gal * noti boy

bla... lala...

dont have much to post bout.. haven been able to use the net.. for almost 1 week +++..
rushing fyp.. arg.. no net.. been slping so early everyday.. crapss...
hmm.. money.. work..
bla.. nth to post ba.. byebyes..

PS: Jonna - stop disturbing / teasing my baby. Thanks

2007-10-23T10:53:00.000+08:00

boo.. in school...
craps... stupid teacher... tutorial..
nothing better to do now lor.. still cant use internet.. .

bla.. so dead.. stuck at home with no net.. tried tapping.. yet..
got filtered out.. rubbishes... hmmm... but its ok ba...
been on phone for the past week.. hahas.. always till early in the morning..
hmm.. i nid to earn big bucks.. anyone got good job lobang??...
at least 6 per hour or more.. part time.. weeks ends.. =DD.... i need the kachingg..

NOV coming.. pays coming 30 oct.. but its cut off is .. 18 oct?.. so.. this few weeks choing so much also wont come in so fast.. bills bills.. argg... hmmm.. nov is special month... lalallala... =.=..
craps..

ok ba.. dun want heart attack liao.. signinngoff...
emoroxx!!!

2007-10-16T11:48:00.001+08:00

Ima in sch rite now.. lesson haven start..
im down.. no net for a few days or maybe weeks.. coz forgot to call singtel/net for the change in address.. =.=

so.. yea.. anyway.. wanted to say these..

Its not one that changes attitude,
but its the other thats asking for more.
One should know when to stop,
but the other should get the hint.

yeap.. my rubbishes.. lala.. so tired..
saturday closing.. reaching home around 545AM.. then on phone till 7+..
fell aslp.. but alarmed at 9.. called some one special.. then go back to slp..
at 11.. =.= whole family came.. its sunday already.. so.. moving h0use.. movedd whole day..
got to rest finally at 12PM.. slp till 5 am.. woke up from old place.. nid to move the altar to new house.. so.. its the auspisiououcsciscis time and day.. evrything have to be correct.. then get to new place.. bla.. tired..

kk.. gtg....
lessons starting soon..
im looking at her right now.. but.. i duno wat i thinking..
emorox..

2007-10-14T06:05:00.000+08:00

just got back from work..
on phone with xy... lol.. crazy ger.. just like fy..

make things clear.. me and xy are just frens... =D..
we discussed.. we're the same... the 2 of us is impossible coz we have someone on our mind.. so.. tats why. you guys dont think too much..
to me.. this is how misunderstanding comes about... mother of all reasons.
ok.. you noe addidas.. ya addidas..
so maybe.. we might be together in the future.. or not.. wateva..
addidas ar..
but for now.. really is no addidas... coz ive got my own target... so.. ya
hmm.. but sad thing is.. my target is getting further and further...
been working so hard to get a good pay in nov.. hoping for 400++...

hope around 180 for bills.. the rest is for something else...
plz drop money on me.. i mean notes.... ya...

i think xy fell aslp le... lol.. so... ya..

hmmm.. im thinking of ECP.. not on 6/10 de.. x.x...

P.S.: Addidas, Impossible is Nothing.

2007-10-12T01:14:00.001+08:00

Sudden emo again.. LOL

Another headache day... been having them for nearly 2 weeks le
... nothing better to do.. so search for this again

http://www.php5.idv.tw/modules.php?mod=forum&act=show&cid=27&showid=1863

some other day then update stuffs ba.. headache.. =)
emorox

2007-10-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

monday.. one of the best to come

6:23 AM
recieved a lovely msg from my gf.. x.x

so touched.. its sweet.. thanks

in sch.. without aaron.. i got to emo whole day.. happy
went to buy 2 books during break.. relaxing..
then saw edwin.... went dsp.. cudnt get anything in..
so i went off.. homed.. chatted.. napped.. work

drenched.. but nite was fun with pple company thru phone..
if your tired.. juz go slp... =.=

2007-10-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

check xy blog for saturday's update..
im lazy

emorox

2007-10-06T16:30:00.001+08:00

whats love

2007-10-06T03:14:00.000+08:00

a sudden streak of emo hours.

why do i always have really really close fren..
then out of sudden.. they will mia..

and i can only get really really close to someone.. juz by fren..
come to think of it.. for those who i like.. or been together..
i duno them at all... crap..

probably.. im destined to have frenz only.. hahs..
well.. i dun belif in destiny.. =D...

smoked again..

headaches never ending..

nites

2007-10-02T03:07:00.000+08:00

im crazy again..

on the cab back from work hor.. i tot of something..
kinda lame but.. its rather true for me~..... lol... hmm.. this is how it goes...

A guy treats you dam nice... when hes wooing you... coz he noes he nids you.. and do his very best to have you... a guy who does everything for you and cares and do dam nice stuffs for you... its becoz he wans u to be happy.... really really happy... all this is becoz HE LOVES YOU...

dunno wat else but the main thing is coming up....

you noe they treat u this and tat... tats why u fall for him... but... when everythings starts to change.. its not tat he loves you no more...

when he stop treating as nice as b4.... its becoz... he noes he have you... you have already gotten the best from him... he dun have to worry that much..

when he stop doing everything for you... its becoz he noes tat... you have learnt tat... theres limited things he can do.. and you cant expect much from him....

when he stops caring about u as much.. tats becoz he noes he have you... always by his side... wats there to worry.. when he is taking so good care of you?...

when he stops doing those sweet sweet nice stuffs for you.... its becoz... he thinks you have him.... and thats the sweetest and nicest thing you ever get... lol....

please dun take it tat he loves you no more.. hahas...
lame huh?.. i noe im not any love pro or wat shit... 1 single relationship only talk so much...
well... its not the numbers tat counts... -.-.. but the everything u put in before.. during and after.... i dunno why i sudenly think so much.. muz be i too sick.. going crazy.. fever burning my viens.. or wat eva shit.. lol...

repost all this.. was from 31/3/06

2007-09-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

cathay is such a stupid place..
my donuts.. total 12 donut.. 6 for her..
6 for myself.. and i had 1.. and alls gone. cool..

lame.. =.=...

anyway.. had a crazy time my feng yi and xue ying.. they are crazy pple.. lol..

after work which is 3.. i soloed public cab to hougang..
coz company cab full cant change to hougang.. so lydat..
9$.. then waited thre for so long.. kovan hong kong cafe..
the 2 gers then come.. craps.. but was on phone with miss5%evil.. hahs.. thanks for pei-ing me.. =)..

through out the whole 'morning'.. juz listening to the 2 ger go crazy.. talking so muchhh rubbishes.. hahs.. funny la.. get to know whr fy stay.. so ULU.. watever..

12 in the afternoon then reached home.. so tired..
anyway. talked alot ba.. =).. i muz try not to be anti social and emo.. but.. emo still rox.. =D...
so woke up not long ago..

nevertheless.. i still feel i did the right thing for ebby..
im nt such a good guy anyway.. my hao nan ren reputation is gone due to my stupid decisions and thoughts and everything la.... hai..
lifes like this.. when theres an effect theres a cause..
everything has a reason..

cheers-
emo rox

2007-09-28T03:07:00.000+08:00

i love emo-ing

emo rox

2007-09-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

been having fever.. late nightss..
nth to do at home..
no whr to go..

sch sch sch..

ima work on weekday too..
i miss the old me

byes

2007-09-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

miss 5% evil.....

went east coast with her.. hahs..
the only sad thing is.. cudnt take any photo.. coz its rather late..
all those writen on the sand.. hahs.. mostly by her.. sadd..

anyway.. had lots of fun.. been chatting alot.. so unlike me.. x.x
walked alot.. thru and fro from macs to the food centre.. its a good place... coz its rather quiet at nite.. but it doesnt lack the feeling of being with pple.. lol.. duno what im saying.. it juz feels great..

my favourite sky was full of stars.. hahs... i love sky filled up with stars.. duno why... the sea breeze.. .. just sitting there.. nex to the salty and sticky sea water.. listening to raina.. chatting.. it really feels.... i wanna do it again.. lol..

i love nights.. coz its quiet.. its best with someone you can talk to... =D...

raina got lots of funny stuffs to tell.. her familys so cute.. i like her mom.. hipp.. hahs.. can go crazy together sia.. i wud like that... hmm... raina.. there are reasons for everything.. but theres something that doesnt need one.. its to be happy.. hahs.. cheers cheers.. dun cry tat much.. be strong.. =DDD

hmm.. tats all ba.. i dun really know wat to say.. but.. its all in my brain.. you can dig it out someday after i die.. =D...

porter seems sick.. off to take care of her...

2007-09-23T22:45:00.001+08:00

One Man

cham oraedwetnabwa ee majocha musekhal mankum
ni nunbitman bwado nol hwonhi da anun
ni chinguchorom noye gurimja chorom

neul hamgge haetnabwa niga himdulddena sulpuldde
werowo halddedo do ibyul angoso
apahalddedo ni nunmul dakggajul

*hannamjaga isso nol nomu saranghan
hannamjaga isso saranghae maldo mothanun
ni kyote son nemilmyo ggok taulgoriye
jashinboda agginun nol kachi nega isso

norul utge hanun il machi gugotman senggakhago
onjeodisona norul barabogo nol guriwohago ni gokjongman hanun

*repeat

chonbonjjum samkigo ddo manbonjjum chusuryo bojima
malhago shippo michilgot katunde nol warak nan ango shipeunde

hanyuhjagaisso ironal morunun
sarangpadumyonso saranginjul do morunun
namankum ggok babokatun sulpun nol dugo
isungando nunmuri najiman hengbokangol
niga kyote itgi ddemuniya

It must've been a long time. Long enough for these words to become colorless.
Even if I just see your eyes, I know everything,
Like your friend, like your shadow.

We must've been together always. When you're having hard time and you are sad,
even when you're lonley. Holding onto seperation a bit longer,
Even when I'm hurting to wipe away your tears..

There's a man. Who loves you so much.
There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.
By your side I put my hand out and
at a path were you can always reach me
I, who cherishes you more than myself, am with you.

To make you laugh, I think of only that and
When and where ever you are I'm watching you and missing you.
And who worries of only you,

There's a man. Who loves you so much.
There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.
By your side I put my hand out and
at a path were you can always reach me
I, who cherishes you more than myeslf, am with you.

For the thousandth time I swallow and again for ten thousandth time I try to set

everthing straight. I want to tell you. I think I'm going to go insane but.
I want to embrace you all at one but...

There's a girl, who doesn't know I'm like this.
Who receives love but doesn't even know that it is love.
Leaving you, who is as foolish as I and sad,
At this moment tears come but I'm happy.
It's because you're by my side.

2007-09-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

i love my small and sexy ears.. lol

i realised tat the fried rice i ate.. has fish in it.. =.=

2007-09-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAE1zjcYhsM
One Man by Kim Jong Kook

Trying to get my hands on this song.

2007-09-18T14:04:00.000+08:00

why

2007-09-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

174th post...

wow rite?
hmm.. almost everyday.. or shud i say nite..
i would think bout you.. but not just you..
think bout word uve said.. things uve done... how i shud have replied.. how i shud have reacted... well yea.. its too bad.. its the past..

perhaps im in need of someone to listen to all thats in me..
if i continue to kip everything in.. im afraid im gonna break down sooner or later.. hai.. i tried to go smooth with my family.. didnt work coz i just cudnt stand it.. my dad.. for some that knows.. the second i see him in the eyes.. i feel like spitting on him.. talking to him make me burn...
my mom.. i just can stand her preaching.. repeating my name and calling me.. some time i just cant stand it.. even my fren who came over for just 1 day.. finds her naggy.. hai..
my sis.. we ignore each other... unless in need...

for her.. im trying my best to kip myself composed...

hmm... when am i going to break down..
im writing this down here.. nt in private.. coz i wan pple to know.. if i die.. its not suicide.. like i said b4.. i got a feeling im gonna die..
=).. so.. cherish me.. lol...

hai.. back to mapling and Heroeing.. fyp.. nth much can be done till this step... i hope the 2 will be able to do something for the hardware interface.. coz i have to move soon..

tears can be for happiness
tears can be for unhappiness
sometimes
tears are just tears

2007-09-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

dont know the reason why but been emo tified -

am really really tired now, but dun feel like slping
didnt really think much but somehow i concluded something
whats done whats past
its impossible to ignore or turn it around
with every step you take you are given the power
the power to think and choose

as the going says-
with great power comes great responsibility (x.X)

make a wise decision else...

2007-09-14T02:45:00.000+08:00

its 2.45 am..

cant get to sleep, but im really tired..
nice song.. listened to it repeated for quite a while already..

i want to be your One Man.

http://angelsbroughtmehere.imeem.com/music/CObdg1tF/han_namja_one_man/

2007-09-10T20:04:00.001+08:00

craps
ayumi is just so lovely rite?... so cute.. my darling.. lol
Dangyunhaji.. hope to be able to play it real life..

been ordering macs everyday.. midnight delivery...
always slping not before 8 am.. and eating lotsa junkss..
more of a burden considered to licking b&js off the spoon... money is important.. been spending crazily recently.. craps la.. and saturday also didnt go work.. duno how to go.. and also over slept.. this friday 6-1.. sure kena scolding.. crap la..

i wanna mahjong.. i wanna night cycle.. i wanna soccer..
i dunwanna fyp.. i dunwana be poor.. i dunwanna lh.. i dunwanna be no life.. i dunwanna stay home alone.. i dunwanna so many things...

as you can see... its more of dunwanna then wanna.. poor thing......
i nid a hug.. ~.~....

2007-09-08T03:31:00.000+08:00

not really a good day..
was hoping to just get a drink outside dxo..
ended up inside, the lady had spoken

first time see yi long.. lol..
hmm.. lol.. it turn out their together.. hahas... well.. ys is abit sot..

saw kleo.. on purpose blocked her way..

heng aaron was still there, so we shared cab back.. if not i solo 18.. pain

sorry kleo.. =)..

total assets left.. 25$.. bank 11$.. facing bankruptcy....
lata on, sat nite.. duno how to go work.. everyone will have eyes on me... coz i pon work friday.. hai.. if get sack.. then ma fan.. nid find job fast... anyone got perm part time.. please contact Francis@83334600. thanks

hope i slp soon..
no more barbar

zzz.. ba dian le.. shui bu zhao..
so revealed the truth last nite in bloggeh 4.. lol..
hope i can slp~~

2007-09-07T03:54:00.000+08:00

my darling... x.x

2007-09-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

nth much..

came up with a rather simple plan for hols.
morning maple.. afternoon fyp.. nite work.. midnite maple..
sunday off..

hope i can wake up early enuff for maple..

24/7 - when your gone - avril

2007-09-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

"When You're Gone"

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

2007-08-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

Bye laopo..

fine.. dun nid it.. is different from dun wan it..

Selling Sony MS 4GB $100 + 28 PSP Games FREE

2007-08-30T04:51:00.000+08:00

Went MOS just now, thanks to Harris for the tickets and helps.
kIdZ gathering please.

MOS was not bad, did some thinking while waiting for the crowd to come.
All stood around the cage, lol.. think of the not so long past.. and present and future. hahs..

This hot lady, come over to me.. lol.. Alcohol promoter la..
Talked to her for a while.. then say dont want buy, too early. It was shots. 10/
Then told her to walk around first..
Then she came back... so i bought 2, apple and orange, duno wat. lol....
Well, she looks pretty and shes hot!.. hahsa.. so it doesnt matter...

smoove all the way then its was blardy packed.. even the walkway also packed.. lame.
and mostly its all guys.. grinded byy guys... lame.. dance with some gers..
but wasnt chinese.. so wth.. dun realy care.... then lydat lalla
after bout 1hr + or 2 hrs.. went out.. and saw the other side was openedd... chiong in..

Mambo.. lol.. Dancing queen.. retro.. blass.. but the rest was out of MOS, so had to go...
then we returned to the spinning stage.. ahsa.. grinded alot there.. so shiok... but cudnt really get just one ger to dance with me.. hot and steamy.. lol... was fun and was not fun.. lol....

so tat sums it up... nex wed again Hey Sugar@MOS!!!!!

2007-08-26T03:24:00.000+08:00

Comparing High School Musical 2 to High School Musical, it is a let down.

Dont know how to put into words, its enchanting but also hits you right on the spot. My rubbishes,, hahs//

It start out by introing the summer vacation, the WildCats gang was looking for job. And somehow it just pops up, lol.. you gotta watch it urself. The stories goes thru friendships, love, selfless-ness and achieving your goals in ways that might be ... Watch it. lol...

It turned out happily ever after, so i think there might not be a sequel.
Anyway, to say it dissapointing compared to HSM, is that, its too long winded, wasnt really into the story. The singing and dancing was great, maybe theyve put more thoughts into the choreography and songs than the story itself. Probably..

Overall, its not worth a weekend ticket if i were to rate. Or perhaps, i wasnt in the mood for lovey dovey.. lol..

I dont really understand why they get so hot in the states? Or whereever it is, their concert was a blast. Perhaps, the ang moh's high school life and ours is far too different. From our point of view, it might just be another lovey dovey.
yea...

And ya, christine was the one who reminded me that HSM 2 was out. lol.. She use to say HSM was crappy when she saw it in my PC, well, she caught the sequel, what more could i say. lol... hope to get the HSM 2 OST soon, wanna listen to the songs much clearer.
And yea, im watchng HSM mainly cause of Vanessa Hudgens. Shes cute, i like the way she smiles in HSM, seems like she smiled throughout the whole story, Hahs...

Check out this few MVs by her:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Q3dBuqXqpLs
http://youtube.com/watch?v=F5VvvVxuKko

2007-08-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

Though she knows nothing, but, something ys said strucked me.

Why, did things turn out this way, i dont understand too.
And yes, jy and relaxing.. lol..

Ive got a tingling sensational on my left middle finger today.
Only few knows what it means, and its some where in my old blogs.
lol.. tag growing dust.

2007-08-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

My new hair style sux..
Next time i would just look for Jason.

Hope by next wed grow longer~...

2007-08-23T01:36:00.001+08:00

came across jasmine's tag.. michelle ng shu yu said..

"i dun mind lying to make you happy"

it sets me wondering.. did i do wrong?

2007-08-18T22:39:00.001+08:00

i love this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5chMDv2BCw&mode=related&search=

2007-08-18T14:44:00.001+08:00

Roméo Et Juliette - Aimer Lyrics

Roméo

Aimer, c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Aimer, c'est monter si haut

Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux

Aimer, c'est ce qu’y a d'plus beau

Juliette

Aimer, c'est voler le temps

Aimer, c'est rester vivant

Et brûler au coeur d'un volcan

Aimer, c'est c'qu'y a dplus grand

Roméo et Juliette

Aimer, c'est plus fort que tout

Donner, le meilleur de nous

Aimer, et sentir son coeur

Aimer, pour avoir moins peur

Roméo et Juliette + Chœurs

Aimer, c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Aimer, c'est monter si haut

Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux

Aimer, c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Aimer, c'est voler le temps

Aimer, c'est rester vivant

Et brûler au coeur d'un volcan

Aimer, c'est c'qu'y a d'plus grand

Juliette + Chœurs

Aimer, c'est brûler ses nuits

Juliette: C'est brûler ses nuits

Aimer, c'est payer le prix

Juliette: C'est payer le prix

Et donner un sens à sa vie

Aimer, c'est brûler ses nuits

Roméo + Chœurs

Aimer, c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Roméo: c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Aimer, c'est monter si haut

Roméo: c'est monter si haut

Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux

Aimer, c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau

Aimer …

More Roméo Et Juliette Lyrics...

2007-08-18T01:28:00.001+08:00

ok, i tried
again
its still the same

2007-08-18T00:16:00.000+08:00

dont know what to say
dont have the strength to go on

that incident was so long ago
dun understand why you alll think of it like a big big problem
people involve had nth to say
those not, came questioning me, like a month after the incident
and they pretty well understand that it doesnt matter at all

its not me whos bothered by it
its you

after that, everyones like so scared of me
i duno how i duno why, i didnt kill did i?
then people starts to change, theres nth i can do,
i tried talking people start ignoring
shud i say, a hi bye reply for the sake of entertaining me
all i can see is for me to shut up and do my own stuff, settled then.

i thought frenz will be punching each other up for the fun of it
even if they quarelled

untill recently, you make it clearer for me to leave u alone
was just writing and displaying wat i wanted and i explained totally before doing so, and yet .... i dont know what else to say

i just cant believe what i tot of doing, its plain stupid
right edwin? you shudnt think of it too.. lol

AKON
"Sorry, Blame It On Me"

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I?m not always there for my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the FEDS came and took me away

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn't anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

2007-08-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

fucked up

didnt go for driving lesson today, 60 bucks fucking gone
cant find any proper practical slot
cancelled my test date. FUCK

i cant get my liscense by nov.

FUCK

2007-08-17T01:57:00.001+08:00

my barbar kena disabled.. =.=

sometimes somehow
it just makes it clearer that
no one
understands me

you dont know the reason why

2007-08-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

2007-08-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

feels so helpless
you have something to ask
but no one to

first time emo for exam
but nt coz fail

2007-08-10T01:32:00.001+08:00

Well, well.
Decided to make a super long post for today. Gratz Singapore 42 years and 1 day old?.. Hah.

Anyways yea. Been keeping myself busy with games, driving and eating.
I believe i have gotten much much rounder then before. I have been calling Macdonalds delivery almost everyday for past 1 week. Crazy, yea. Well.. yea..

For today, planned to study at night, but as usual, stared at my PC and do nothing agains. Watched House and some shows on TV, with my Network & Protocols Textbook in hand. All i can remember for tonight is, the reason for layering and the 7 different layers. If you ask me describe the layers briefly, you can kiss my ass goodbye. Hahas...

What the hack, i have to buck up later on(Friday night). Perhaps take a nap after gym and wake up in the night to study. 4 days to Networks's Exam, i aim for 3 days to study it, the rest for Digital Communications. And same thing, next friday for MIIP or is it MIT? Doesnt matter, just study, BLINDLY. Hope i can focus.. >.o

Pretty crap up, whens the holiday? Hoping that it would come sooner. LOl
But i still dont know what to do during Hols, find a new job? Get pumped up for maple? Or get my ass back into cathay running around?
Damn. Pathetic, if i stay home maple all day long, ill definitely get kicked out again or maybe my LAOPO2(MY PERSONAL COMPUTER/PC/MEDIA CENTER) get smash into pieces. If thats so, i will have to bring my LAOPO(PLAYSTATION PORTABLE/PSP) out everyday hide at some where with power socket. Lames.
Find a new job, easier said then done, its not like ive got lots of time to work. Shucks!..
Probably, argg... Cant make out a win-win situation. Pretty sad case huh. Damn!
Alrite forget it.

Hmm, ive got driving lesson, 2 to be exact. 800-940 and 1205- 1345. I am still awake right now 0200. Just cant sleep again, maybe will get to see WanChing online again.. Suayness.. Hahs..
I slept at 6 am for tuesday night and went to watch Secret with Ebby on wednesday. On the way to Cathay, saw Miss Thaw who was catching the same show as we are with someone shes secretive about(In the end found out who lor), lol.... Suay...... lol... Yeaps..

Not a bad movie, not a great story. >.o
After movie, as usual like last time, nothing to do, so sent Ebby home then took 105 from interchange to interchange. The ride took 1hr and 40 minutes, its National Day Eve!... I believe it took round 50 minutes to get to Orchard Far East. I fell aslp and woke up to see a couple LJ-ing right in front of me. I am always sitted at the right last side of the bus. =D. Hai, kids now adays.
But, i can only say, not hawt but not bad at all.

Reach home, Edwin calls me. Was like FTW?..
He sounded so damn sad, and i was really curious what happened. He says hen ji mo(Lonely~ He is so lonely~), then he says, he got 2 tickets to NDP. I just reply, i wanna study. lol.. I already had it planned. Soz.. =D....
Hope you understand, and please get a tag. =DD

Alright, to my driving. Ive almost completed all the lesson i think. I went for test route 1 and 2 with an auto car. Auto rocks big time!. But manual is cool, imagine me in shades and drifting. HAH.
=.=

My TP will be on 9/11/2007, Hope for a 1 time pass. I wanna book for more practice session, my parrallel parking and crank course and directional change just sucks. Some little stuffs have been problematic too. Little they can be, added up can crush you. Tommorro will be E-Brake(DRIFT!) and Three point turn. Good luck to me~~..

To sum it all up, ive made plans, a little tiny plan for upcoming long to come event. Ive got to save up, getting the new house has cost a bomb. In the end, my room looks horrible, different from what i wanted. Hmm, shudnt have went to see it before moving it, i already know it wouldnt be, now im so harrassed by it. IT SUCKS! Why did they even bother asking how i want my room to be when in the end, its all different? Hai...
Plans for upcoming shall be kept a Secret for now.
For the long to come, Edinburgh. Check it out, =D.

Alrights, my darling Jehmeen telling me to sleep. SO rare.
So long~..

2007-08-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

Edinburgh

Bye everyone.
This way, i will forget.

maybe

2007-07-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

i am so tired this days..

i feel that im such a coward.
hiding in maple.. and even have the thoughts of going back habbo.
why am i hiding away into those places again....

hai..
studies.. goner.. i dun think i can fulfill the promise
to be there together on the same day,

2007-07-29T18:11:00.000+08:00

Is there a need to lie?
I was once told, just say how you feel.

Draw sad shit as food capacity.

2007-07-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

So the problem doesnt lies with me,

i am still the same me.

Ive got no more homepage.

2007-07-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

im sorry then

psp -
my lao po
myself -
just a picture
E
N
O
L
A

thanks for letting me know

im such an irritant

2007-07-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

Sorry people.
I'm not that drunk and still into girls.

old photo, put i like the me inside.

2007-07-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

totally wasted..
hai..
i wanna hug you
maybe coincidental or not
i didnt expect you to come, didnt want.
dont want you to see me this way.
but anyway, thx to all whose been there.
and whisper in ur ears
and sry for spoiling ur mood. =)
take care of urself
vomited 3 time sia// i bet i drank too much.. water not alcohol.. got a full tummy.. super uncomfortable,
tats y.
whereever i am to be, laopo. >.o

2007-07-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

i find myself rather sadistic,
reading up serial killers.

watching discovery on serial kiillers
trying to get in the mind of people, today is BTK. He is a cool man.

Bind Torture Kill.

its not easy coming up with mass murdering plan, since the discovery of DNA. Just a tiny drop of sweat, a strand of hair.
I tot of like getting a sniper rifle. Hide some whr far

Wait Aim Kill.

Clean up all traces of urself. And of coz silent the dam noisy gun if possible.. its a muz.. hmmm.. if its posible to manually edit dna it wud be even better.. muahaha.. im a sadist..

Die an icon...

hai.. today is a waste of my life again.. anyway thx..
what a week, didnt really attended sch.. fukup family as usual..

tues
pon sch wanna stay home. kena kicked out.. =.=.. from morning 10 walk around clementi, dover, jurong point alone till 1+ mit aaron go bakut teh.. didnt know his gf coming.. lol.. if not i wudnt go.. i dun wanna be so extra...
then go sch for miip

wed
pon whole day, woke up go sch for gem.. then went town.. for nth

thurs
pon also then afternnoon go sch.. all pon together went town.. waste money...

today
no comments.. =.=...

meaningless ar.. hai
missing letters

2007-07-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Time sure pass real fast ar.
Soon will be army and out to work or maybe study oversea.
Definitely cant study in Singapore.
I am not that rich.

Thinking of the past, its really a waste of time. Hai....
回到过去
If only there was a time machine.

Good night.

2007-07-14T21:07:00.001+08:00

Should have gone to work today.

2007-07-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Someone please help me forget.
Forget everything.

Jasmine, thanks for accompanying me on the phone this few days.
Aaron, thanks for playing games with me this few days, tho its for yourself. hahs
Yuan Shan, thanks for last friday watching movie with me.

And thanks to JiaQian who remembers my birthday. >.o

Good Night.

2007-07-11T22:34:00.001+08:00

From Jehmeen "dar" de blog. LOL....

A crazy pianist, his got a retard face tho.
Maybe thats why he plays so well. Jehmeen sa he no chidlhood.
lol....

i found this.. haizz

2007-07-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

I forgot what i wanted to post, but anyway.
I changed a bit of my blog template.
Only the pics to be specific.
lol

Porter cute, now adays she keeps dragging toy to me.
Want me to play with her. I just take and throw out, after she left my room to go get it, i close my door. Lol, shell juz whine outside.. x.x...

Anyway, Decided to play at least 2 hours of maple everyday, the rest watch bleach.

No time for studies.
Hahs. Exact is no mood ba. Hai..

ys says whats the use of asking teacher when you dont even know what to ask. True right. Hmmm

Off to maple then. Hahs...

the glow in your eyes
the way your lips move
you like him

2007-07-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

one of the craziest day today, dont know what happened.

Anyway, Thanks Aaron. >.o
Female shoe ar.. lol

Iiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~...

Anyway, i like this song from Bleach Season 1, ending theme.
Dont know the song title but it starts with.

Nobody knows who i really am, ive never felt this empty before.
And if i ever need somone to come along, Who's gona comfort me and keep me strong.

Nice, lol...

2007-07-08T15:01:00.001+08:00

Worked yesterday in the end.
I think i over exerted my vien, blue black now and it fucking hurts.

Today dont want to go work.

489 2336 25644464 46 69 639 2564.
227227-72346.25647768.266
662639 226 733 48.

New code. >.o

2007-07-07T01:57:00.000+08:00

Well, out today.
Catch Die Hard 4.

What a stubborn old bastard who just wont die. Hahs.

Not bad day, 1-2 more days for bleach to complete.
And i will be in my world.
Woots, enola~..

2007-07-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

A smart way to start fire without burning yourself.

But, like i said, I AM NOT STUPID.